Tuesday, September 07, 2010
Yesterday. Wow. This year is just unbelievable. DH is devastated at the loss of his friend. Growing up, there were three of them. They were inseparable. One was killed at the Pentagon on 9/11 and  yesterday it appears the other passed away from an accidental overdose, although we won't be sure until the autopsy results come back. To make matters worse, DH was on the phone with his friend's mom when she found him. She told DH he had shot himself. We didn't know any different until later that afternoon. My husband and his friend were once avid hunters and still loved to go to the shooting range. We think she must have seen one of his guns and just automatically assumed the worst. Thankfully, that wasn't the case. Either way, the end result is the same. On a stranger note, it was five months to the day we lost our Josey. It was a rough day.

Our dear friend was a wonderful person. He had many health problems and an addiction that he had been battling the past couple years. We thought he was on his way to recovery, but I guess it only takes one stumble. The man we remember will always be the good hearted, funny, I'll do anything for anybody person. That's how he'll always be remembered. We love him and already miss him dearly. Someone made the comment that it wasn't right that all this tragedy has hit one family. This person kept asking what have we done? For any of you out there that have thought the very same thing, I'll tell you what I told her.  It's not our fault. We did nothing wrong. We are not being punished. Every family experiences tragedy, trials and problems at some point along the way. It's life and sometimes life just happens and it sucks.

The one thing I've realized about life and myself in the past five months is that 1) I'm a survivor and 2) it truly is up to us to make our own happy ending. So I'll leave you with this quote from one of Stephen Curtis Chapman's songs. I find it fits what I believe perfectly.

Out of these ashes... beauty will rise
and we will dance among the ruins
We will see Him with our own eyes
Out of these ashes... beauty will rise
For we know, joy is coming in the morning...
in the morning, beauty will rise



  1. I am so sorry for the loss of your husband's lifelong friend. What a rollercoaster you and your family have been on..hope that things start looking up for soon.

  2. Praying for you guys, I know this hasn't been an easy year.

  3. I'm so sorry for the loss of your husband's dear friend. I've been thinking about you this week, as I know it has not been an easy one.

    I'm appalled by the question your friend asked. How can anyone think all this tragedy is from something we've done?

    Sending you love and hugs!