Emotions

Monday, September 20, 2010
Did you know it's possible to be so happy and unbelievably sad at the same time? No? Me either, but you can. Tonight, my sister is being induced and soon I'll officially be a real live aunt! I can't wait to spoil him and love on him and kiss his cheeks! And at the same time, it hurts beyond belief that I can't have the same thing.

Ahh life, why do you have to be so difficult? Part of me foolishly keeps holding out that we'll win the lottery and I can afford to find a gestational surrogate. Granted that isn't a guarantee, but if you're rich you can just try it all over again, right? **Sigh**

Anyway, good things are happening. Sometimes it just takes a little work to get past the bumps in the road, or big, huge massive mountains in my case. lol

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3 comments

  1. I know you are excited to be an aunt, but it will be emotionally difficult. I hope no one in your family expects it to be easy for you. I hope the new baby brings a little bit of healing into your life as well.

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  2. Thank you for stopping by my blog on my SITS Day. I'm so glad I found your blog! DH and I have been thinking about domestic adoption (an older child). It's such a tough decision. I do enjoy my nieces, nephews, and friends' children, so part of me thinks I should just spoil them some more.

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  3. Virtual hugs for both the pain and the joy--I am sure you will be overjoyed to be a loving-spoiling-Aunt...so I hope the sting isnt overwhelming.
    Wishing you well! And saying my hellos from ICLW!

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