Friends & Rainbows

Monday, August 23, 2010
I'd just like to say CONGRATS to all my BLMs out there who are now pregnant with their rainbows! This is very exciting news and I wish them all the best.  Girls, I'll be watching and reading and sending lots of prayers and positive thoughts your way!!

All this news of rainbows has me wondering if we need to give it another shot. Don't get me wrong, we're adopting first and foremost.  But later on, maybe we should seriously revisit trying again.  It's been five months in two weeks and honestly I have no desire to get pregnant again.  The thought makes me ill.  It was such a traumatic experience to live through for those couple months that I'm not sure I want to even take the chance. I feel guilty for feeling this way, but I also know that what's best for me isn't always the same as what's best for someone else. Yet as a woman, there's still that lingering hope of wanting to be able to carry your own child.

I guess we'll just have to wait and see what this crazy world has in store for me.  I've realized it truly isn't up to me and what will be will be.

Happy Monday everyone!


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