A good start

Saturday, July 03, 2010
This morning while I was grocery shopping for our cookout later tonight, I found myself browsing the little baby boy clothes without a thought.  The only thing going through my mind was I just have to get this for Baby Hudson, my soon to be nephew.  I was picking up jumpers and onesies and loving every minute of it.  Then I realized what I was doing and it kind of freaked me out.  I set the outfit I had in my hands back on the rack, turned around and went back to searching for chips and hamburger.  I was quite proud of myself.  I finally felt like I've been longing to feel for awhile now - good and excited about this new little one on the way.  I'm hoping this feeling sticks around.


  1. Have a wonderful cookout...i found myself at a craft store about to purchase a little flip flip shaped peg coatrack and realized that I was buying a coatrack for my dead baby's room. Needless to say, it went back ont he shelf and is logged in my memory bank for the future..but it felt good to look at kids stuff and feel positive, rather than welling up with tears like I have been doing.

    Little steps forward, it's all we can do..but I like that you are a lot like me...in the way that you find pride in overcoming the little things, and it seems to me that you are trying to see the good in life, despite the broken heart you carry.

    I admire your outlook and honesty.

  2. Good for you!!!!!!!!!! Have a great 4th of July.